Never to early to try something new.

I know everyone says it, but I am the luckiest girl in the world! I have a wonderful husband, two beautiful children, and recently a new house. You could say I have it all... but somewhere along the way I have lost who I really am. I know it's a problem many of us struggle with. I have been so wrapped up in living for my family that I lost the things I love to do.

 I have a very exciting job and am one of the lucky few to be able to have the best of both worlds. I stay at home with my children four days out of the work, and work full time three days. Between home and work, ballet classes and school I haven't had a lot of time to myself. I will not be so lucky in the next few weeks. My schedule at work will be such that I won't be able to make long term plans because of the constant shift of days I will be working.

As if I didn't have enough to do, I also recently went back to school because, although I love my job as an xray tech at a major hospital I am wanting something more. I want to do something that means something. I used to love going to work and found it thrilling seeing all the stuff I get to see in a level 1 trauma center, but somewhere along the way I found myself slightly jaded to it. With this new schedule being forced at work, I will not have the time to go to school like I need to so I am going to have to put school on the back burner until I can figure out that part.

I have also decided that I am tired to hating my body. Two beautiful children have done some horrible things to this body of mine. I have never been the tiny girl, but this is getting out of hand. I have always seen myself as "fat" because of how I was raised, and don't want my daughter to get into the same habits and twisted self image I have and need to change! I started going to the gym after my son was 3 months old and have done a pretty good job sticking to the routine, but the new schedule at work also has me thinking about dropping my membership even though I love going. Seeing a trend??? This job is starting to get in my way of the life I am trying to create ,and momma ain't happy 'bout it.

You are supposed to create a job that fits around your family, and not a family that has to fit around your job. What is this girl to do?? I haven't quite figured it out yet, but talking about it sure can't help. Be with me as I struggle to find a true happiness. This is going to be a bumpy ride.